Performing For Love – Buddy Nielsen

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Buddy Nielsen, singer for rock band, Senses Fail.

0:00 Music, Childhood and the Need to Be Seen
4:10 Growing Up With Famous Soap Opera Parents
7:58 How 9/11 Changed the Direction of His Life
12:15 Conditional Love, an Absent Father and the Mother Wound
18:44 Turning Childhood Trauma Into Art and Healing
22:42 Pills, Alcohol and His Grandfather’s Drunk Driving
30:31 Breaking Generational Trauma for His Children
33:03 Self-Hatred and the Inability to Accept Love
37:12 The Concert That Inspired His Music Career
39:25 Musical Influences, Dark Lyrics and Feeling Understood
43:06 Senses Fail Fans, Fame and the Search for Connection
47:37 Finding Safety Through Marriage and Fatherhood
50:13 Childhood Sexuality, AOL and Early Online Exploitation
57:33 Coming Out as Queer and His Father’s Reaction
1:00:34 How Coming Out Affected Senses Fail and His Career
1:09:17 Leaving the Band and Working at a Donut Shop
1:10:04 Healing Trauma and Growing Older
1:12:34 Depression, S*icidal Thoughts and the Will to Survive
1:17:31 How Music Unlocks Childhood Memories
1:21:27 Finding Happiness Through His Children
1:22:51 Queer Identity, Monogamy and His Marriage
1:27:29 Catholicism, Buddhism and Spirituality
1:29:35 Self-Harm, Regret and Personal Responsibility
1:31:45 The Most Important Lesson He Has Learned
1:33:05 New Senses Fail Music and Emotional Hardcore

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